Self delusion is my optimism

Saturday, July 07, 2007







It's time to move on and away..relocated elsewhere to write my very own journal of myprevarication






Tuesday, July 03, 2007

Great night out with old pals at siglap last night.It's been more than a year since parting ways yet somehow it's still the same old laughter just like old times.






And here's some lame photos mich took when she got bored..

Nope that ain't me..
In case you don't know,this is shang


Pigging out on dessert...

Pigging on even more dessert,but not without saying,"You guys are making use of me,i'm gonna have to charge you all"(When we offered our dessert to him)
A picture mich and yani took awhile back..


P.s: Dear old friend,is it too much to ask for,that you don't be over occupied with your phone calls.It's been awhile since we all last hung out,and somehow i think we,if not,i expected more from you.

Thursday, June 21, 2007

What happens when you put 3 idiotic good friends at one of their place?You get a whole load of horrid singing (or screeching in shang's case) and a session of 'gaying' around.Went over to supposedly do some math in a bid to prevent the worst case scenario from happening next week,which would involve either me or shang sitting in the hall pressing away vigorously at our calculators.No not calculating out an answer to the question,but more of calculating the least possible marks we would end up with.

So armed with an old radio,the really old kind that is made of wood and is 8 years of age,ipods,and notes,we set about trying to accomplish the arduous task.Everything looked set to go and almost too good to be true.Fast forward 2 hours later,and you get a picturesque imperfect,of 3 morons sitting there munching on snacks and two idiots making desperate attempts at mimicking the singing of aerosmith.And after watching 2 episodes on friends,it got to our heads on whose getting what if one of us dies.Shang's dog shall be given away if he dies,and ben's hot sister was up for grabs,while for a poor fella like me,there was only a stupid ipod nano they could get.We came to an amicable agreement that i'll get shang's dog since ben's younger sister chloe who,has up to date,killed 3 hamsters i think came into light.

Anyway,the day was sort of wasted,if you look at it in terms of work accomplished.But somehow i prefer to look at it otherwise.It's been a while since we spent time together doing stupid stuff and laughing.And i realised,that true friends are those whom you can be yourself,and not worry about your image or shit like that.You could laugh with them,poke fun at each other and basically make boring stuff become a fun thing to do.I'll end it off here with a quote i saw,
"Friendship is like peeing your pants. Everyone can see, but only you can feel its warmth."

And maybe another one..

The buddy system is essential to your survival; it gives the enemy somebody else to shoot at.
- Murphy's Military Laws

Sunday, June 17, 2007

Can't exactly describe how i feel right now,the countless attempts at one physics question after another is making me feel exasperated.It gets vexing after consecutive futile attempts at solving the same question,and then i move on to another question just to realise i'm back at square one yet again.If i had a genie right now,i'd wish for a physics teacher with the brains of einstein that looks like Jessica alba.Oh wait,i think i'd wish for a more physics oriented brain of my own.

You know you're pretty much screwed when the holidays enter the final week,and there's still loads to be done.And you can count on life to suck at times like this,with a mid year exam to usher you back to term 3 of school.I'm now seriously re-evaluating my choice of JC,and i'll give 2 bucks (which is all i have in my wallet now) to relinquish my choice for the opportunity to opt for poly.

Seriously,somebody or anybody,just buy me a bicycle so i can cycle away from all this shit.(Leaving on a jet plane sounds too corny and over-used,so i'll stick to something conventional and environmental friendly)

Saturday, June 16, 2007



Some funny comedian you gotta see!

Wednesday, June 13, 2007

What do you do when you don't have a chair at the beach?You make yourself one of course!

I tried out the "chair",and riza's expression says it all!

Everyone's up for volleyball,well almost everyone

After drifting in and out of conscioshusness on the bus,and just staring out the window motionless, watching as the headlights of passing cars flash by,I'm finally back.After the 5 hours ride,I'm back on this little dot i call home,where travelling on the highway would at most take an hour or slightly more.The torturous ride was exacerbated by the surrounding sea of darkness that offered no hints or signs of life.There were no lamp posts that stood along the roads,and its just the rumbling noise of the engine serenading the night.

The trip there was probably less strenuous on the mind and body as i slept away most of the lengths of the trip.Reaching the destination marked yet another long wait,as we reached way before the time slot of getting a hotel room.And so the first day is pretty much summarised by a truckload of waiting and hindered rest.

I spent much of the day wandering around the theme park with mom and cousins,of which the cousins seemed to have some huge unknown reserve of energy that drove them on and on.Ride after ride they took,and they never showed signs of weariness,which really amazed me for i was just dying to get some rest.I spent most of the first day in the company of my mom,as we walked around and did our shopping.I couldn't remember the last time i spent quality time with her,back in Singapore with my hectic schedule i never had the time to accompany her for shopping or just having tea.Yet her care and concern never once wavered all this time as it showed during this time we spent.I was just gutted at myself,somehow all this while I've never really been that good a son.

The two days passed quickly and we were all holding out luggages preparing to come back home.The air was great that day,cool and crisp,and as i walked screams greeted me as if to say goodbye.Somehow i felt reluctant to leave,just like all the previous times it was a swirl of emotions for i felt at home there.It was Singapore to me,minus the stress and expectations and it felt good to be away from everything for awhile.Perhaps if it were longer ..

An overview of the place



Somehow i think i'll take the ride in the foreground over the one in the background

Yea if only it weren't for kids.And thats my bro in the middle!

The closest thing to being superman,and how could i resist?Loved this ride!





My lil brother's first bumper car ride

The haunted adventure





After sipping both Starbucks' and Coffeebean's brew,it got me thinking on how the difference of the two other than the labels on their cups.

Saturday, June 09, 2007

It's my first day here at Genting,and somehow i've managed to find some lan shop and am thus able to get back to 'civilisation' again.The weather's great,too good in fact judging from the fact that you could walk a mile here under the non-existent sun and not sweat a single drop.

Somehow just as i predicted,i'm now bored and lonely which you could probably have inferred by now seeing that i'm actually in a lan shop tolerating people mapling around me.But then i realised that maybe sometimes,it's not all about yourself being happy and enjoying.Today was one of the rare occasions i spent quality time with my mom.Since she wasn't into casinos and i didn't have my usual cousins to hang out with,we stuck together for almost the whole day.Took rides with her at the theme park,and somehow i realised that as one got older,(or maybe it's just me) your balls kinda shrink.I stood in awe at people trying out that ride which propels you up and then drops you down not before holding you in suspense with your ass sweating it out.The last time i came,i took it with my brother gamely.And that very last time,i was a changed person.Alright back to the topic about me and my mom.So yea today i finally felt like a son,accompanying her on a wild shopping spree and the many indoor rides.And i have to emphasize buying clothes here is just great,and its a plus to have your mom along.=x The clothes here are pretty much cheaper here somehow,and there's actually more variety for guys.

And now that i've mentioned shopping,i now officially am a staunch non-advocate of our very own 'GREAT' Singapore Sales.In the past few weeks of trying to buy a shirt or two to satisfy the shopping urges,as well as to make myself feel better that i've bought something during the GSS.And i've came to realise that the GSS is just a whole load of crap,a mere facade put on by the morons who try to make use of us,the patrons to clear the old stocks.More often that not,the stupid discounts are on specific items only,and these specific items tend to be some shirt that comes in sizes XS XL XXL or in weird colours that even your grand-dad wouldn't want to be in.
Alright now that i've gotten that off my chest,i feel ,much much better!

I'm off to contemplate on my activities for later,which would most probably be sitting at starbucks sipping hot coffee and reading through my econs notes or perhaps,just sleeping back in the room again.

P.S i really do hate the GSS now.